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Entry tags:
- coco: héctor rivera,
- critical role: beauregard,
- critical role: yasha nydoorin,
- final fantasy xv: ardyn izunia,
- final fantasy xv: ignis scientia,
- fragile dreams: ren,
- hollow knight: the knight,
- hyper light drifter: the drifter,
- marble hornets: tim wright,
- mass effect: legion,
- mushi-shi: ginko,
- original: erika fisher,
- original: mira delacroix,
- osomatsu-san: ichimatsu matsuno,
- red vs. blue: agent washington,
- the adventure zone: kravitz,
- the league: jules dagger samari,
- undertale: asgore dreemurr,
- undertale: chara dreemurr,
- voltron: keith kogane,
- voltron: takashi shirogane,
- ✖ ffxv: gladiolus amicitia,
- ✖ ffxv: prompto argentum,
- ✖ guilty gear: faust,
- ✖ hollow knight: the hollow knight,
- ✖ hollow knight: troupe master grimm,
- ✖ homestuck: karako pierot,
- ✖ hyper light drifter: the guardian,
- ✖ no.6: nezumi,
- ✖ no.6: shion,
- ✖ original: foster van denend,
- ✖ persona 5: ann takamaki,
- ✖ rwby: pyrrha nikos,
- ✖ the adventure zone: lup,
- ✖ the adventure zone: taako,
- ✖ undertale: frisk,
- ✖ undertale: muffet,
- ✖ voltron: alfor,
- ✖ voltron: princess allura
January Event: Fade to Black
JANUARY EVENT: FADE TO BLACK
Who: Anyone and everyone!
What: Your true self comes to roost
When: January 21st - 23rd; January 25th - 28th
Where: All over!
Warnings: Dark subjects such as violence and self-destruction are likely to come to the forefront - please mark your content accordingly!
What: Your true self comes to roost
When: January 21st - 23rd; January 25th - 28th
Where: All over!
Warnings: Dark subjects such as violence and self-destruction are likely to come to the forefront - please mark your content accordingly!
Down in that Darkness
This log is primarily for the Shadow and Light portions of the event, for ease and convenience. Your Shadow can be either the Persona-inspired sort - a "brutal, bitterly honest recreation of a character's worst flaws, darkest fears, and deepest secrets" - or the edgier, more laughable variant. The Lights, on the other hand, will do their utmost to convince their real selves of their best qualities, no matter how little they want to hear them.
Remember that the Shadows will be present from January 21st to January 23rd, and the Lights will be present from January 25th to January 28th.
On January 25th, we will post a separate log for Rejection Rooms!
Some useful links, for reference:
This log is primarily for the Shadow and Light portions of the event, for ease and convenience. Your Shadow can be either the Persona-inspired sort - a "brutal, bitterly honest recreation of a character's worst flaws, darkest fears, and deepest secrets" - or the edgier, more laughable variant. The Lights, on the other hand, will do their utmost to convince their real selves of their best qualities, no matter how little they want to hear them.
Remember that the Shadows will be present from January 21st to January 23rd, and the Lights will be present from January 25th to January 28th.
On January 25th, we will post a separate log for Rejection Rooms!
Some useful links, for reference:
[ ♆ ] OOC Event Post
[ ♆ ] Rejection Room Sign-Ups; remember to note your interest in these as soon as possible!
[ ♆ ] Deaths Page; death penalties have been reduced for the duration of this event, but still do let us know if your character dies regardless!
Event Timeline
[ ♆ ] January 20th: The monthly Storytelling occurs.
[ ♆ ] January 21st: Shadows of both initial variants appear.
[ ♆ ] January 23rd: Shadows of both initial variants disappear.
[ ♆ ] January 25th Lights and Rejection Rooms appear.
[ ♆ ] January 28th: Lights and Rejection Rooms dissipate. Those still trapped in their Rejection Rooms by the event's end will suffer a character death.
( CODED BY BOOTYCALL )
cw for child death, violence, and just bad stuff
[ He doesn't reference himself directly. Never himself directly. It's always about how horrible the world around him is, never what's happened to him, even though all of that has. ]
I can tell you stories, but I'm not carrying around some confession, ready to break. None of it bothers me. That's just life.
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[Maybe that's the most infuriating thing about it: that it's earnest. The Light really does mean that. It fumbles over its words because Washington, for all his attempts at professionalism, isn't the best at discussion, really. He's not great at words.]
[Even the best parts of him aren't much better.]
"I'm sorry, if you had to live that way for your entire life."
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Someone smart enough to see past it may see that he's sacrificed a lot of things to reach that point. Among them is the ability to accept sincere condolences.
But, this is also a unique situation. Normally, the people in the Western District, all living in the same hell, didn't offer kindness. Normally, those who did lived a life of privilege that Nezumi could mock. Washington, if his words are true, has survived a war. ]
How many times do I have to say that I'm not bothered by any of it? You're judging me by your own ideas. It's normal. You're not hurt by what's normal.
[ Sometimes, Nezumi is a big, fat liar. ]
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[Its expression is closed - morose in the only way Wash knows how to be, which isn't openly. It's sustained and it's melancholy and it's restrained.]
[The kids on Chorus grew up wearing their parents' armor. They grew up locked in a civil war they couldn't prevent, a conflict propelled by megalomaniacal assholes who wanted nothing more than to reap the planet's resources from the dead. They lived with the smell of their own dead, just a bunch of scared kids too young to remember when the planet wasn't embroiled in war.]
"I guess you did grow up in a warzone, in a way. If that was every day of it, I can't imagine what that would be like."
sorry for the delay. i went on hiatus
[ Nezumi doesn't want pity. The Western District is horrible, there's no one denying the fact. He was a child, alone after only 12, living in a world where being a child offered you no protection of any kind.
But he survived. He had already begun to close off after his time there with his guardian, but the walls grew higher, thicker. A child alone, especially one with a very acknowledged 'pretty face' had to adapt or die -- or worse. So, he did. He learned to use his looks in his favor and found a job on the stage. He knew how to fight, and he was able to protect himself, no matter what they tried.
So, he didn't have it worse. Somehow, Nezumi managed to strive. It meant living for himself, only for himself. Until Shion. ]
It made sure I wasn't weak.
all good!
"I'm offering an ear to listen, if you want it. In all likelihood, you're never going to see me again, and whatever I hear now, the real me won't ever learn.
"It won't ruin your hardass street cred if you take a moment to look back at your life and say it was kind of fucked. You're allowed to feel bad about that."
[Agent Washington knows what it's like to take the shit that's happened to you and file it into a weapon, turn it outward until it burns like a stake into the hearts of everyone else. Sometimes it feels like it's the only thing you can control.]
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[ Aside from the obvious disdain for the city, there's not a lot of infliction in Nezumi's smooth voice. He doesn't sound sad or regretful. Weakness, especially in front of a stranger, is the same as revealing your throat and offering them a free blow. ]
I can fight, and I can feed myself. If you're looking for a sad story about an orphan who was defeated by life, you're reading the wrong story.
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[Granted, if he's grown up like this - there are sayings aplenty about the mask and becoming what lies beneath it, and such.]
warning: getting into things kids shouldn't experience
[ Even more annoyed than he shows, Nezumi decides he'll turn the guy off another way. He seems to be decent in the way that he's not quite the same as perverts who didn't care about age of their target. Suddenly, he smiles, his face changing to something more charming. ]
Do you know what kids do to earn money when they don't steal and haven't gone to school in a world where age doesn't make a difference?
[ Nezumi's lying... in a way. Some kids have resorted to it, and it's an offer he gets from clients and pimps alike, but he's managed to survive without falling down that hole. ]
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[It's blunt, but honest.]
"I'm completely fucking aware of the kind of shit that's done to people when they're in a position to be taken advantage of. When you're at the very bottom of the chain."
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[ He's bluffing. This is a ridiculous game of chicken, but in the end, Nezumi is much more likely to make up a situation than to honestly lay out his trauma for this stranger to hear. ]
We can talk about prostitution, but as a soldier, you were more likely to buy one than to rent yourself out. But your life didn't begin in a war so maybe I'm wrong. If you want, we can trade gun stories. I've never been on a literal battlefield, but I've shot my share of men. Hmm... theft? Dead bodies? Those are probably common in your stories. Going hungry for days? It's not as if you were taking breaks for lunch.
Where should we start?
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"Let's start with your psychological armor. It's not particularly dense, or complicated. You grew up in pain and fear and you learned to build up an exterior to compensate for what you've seen and lived through. Maybe it's so that you don't have to consciously process it. Maybe it's so that you can convert any emotion that you don't like into being unpleasant, so that it keeps people at bay. I don't know. I'm not a psychoanalyst. I've just lived long enough to pick up some things.
"So I'm willing to bet that it has more to do with not wanting to be vulnerable in front of someone you don't know all that well. Someone pats your back, and you check for the knife.
"Am I getting warm?"
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[ His tone still refuses to change, almost making it seem like he could talk of dying with the same golden voice. ]
You're almost close at the end. I don't let people pat my back because they likely do have a knife. If they don't in the present, when they get smart enough or want something, they will.
[ This is annoying. Does he think Nezumi doesn't open up to people he's not close to? Nezumi doesn't open up. His past, his trauma, all of it is his. Why should he share it? It's the same as making a list of every time he's been weak or vulnerable.
He can walk away, but it almost feels like letting the man win. If it's for safety, Nezumi's fine with that. He'll walk away, the supposed loser, but he'll walk away alive. For this? No. He'll make the man go first. ]
Ah, that's what this is, isn't it? You're charmed by my good looks. I'm afraid I'm a harder sell than that.
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[The Light couldn't begin to tell Nezumi, or anyone, the last time that anyone's looks mattered to Wash, most likely because they never really did.]
"You want to cut yourself off from the rest of the world, fine. That's your business. It's not mine, and I'm not going to pretend that it is. Clearly, you're not interested in talking to me about any of it. That's your choice.
"I'm not going to last very long here anyway."