January Event: Fade to Black

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JANUARY EVENT: FADE TO BLACK

Who: Anyone and everyone!
What: Your true self comes to roost
When: January 21st - 23rd; January 25th - 28th
Where: All over!
Warnings: Dark subjects such as violence and self-destruction are likely to come to the forefront - please mark your content accordingly!

Down in that Darkness

This log is primarily for the Shadow and Light portions of the event, for ease and convenience. Your Shadow can be either the Persona-inspired sort - a "brutal, bitterly honest recreation of a character's worst flaws, darkest fears, and deepest secrets" - or the edgier, more laughable variant. The Lights, on the other hand, will do their utmost to convince their real selves of their best qualities, no matter how little they want to hear them.

Remember that the Shadows will be present from January 21st to January 23rd, and the Lights will be present from January 25th to January 28th.

On January 25th, we will post a separate log for Rejection Rooms!

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Some useful links, for reference:

[ ♆ ] OOC Event Post
[ ♆ ] Rejection Room Sign-Ups; remember to note your interest in these as soon as possible!
[ ♆ ] Deaths Page; death penalties have been reduced for the duration of this event, but still do let us know if your character dies regardless!

Event Timeline

[ ♆ ] January 20th: The monthly Storytelling occurs.
[ ♆ ] January 21st: Shadows of both initial variants appear.
[ ♆ ] January 23rd: Shadows of both initial variants disappear.
[ ♆ ] January 25th Lights and Rejection Rooms appear.
[ ♆ ] January 28th: Lights and Rejection Rooms dissipate. Those still trapped in their Rejection Rooms by the event's end will suffer a character death.

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Comments

[catpiper]

It's not a 'waste.'

[How could spending time with Mira, being able to cuddle by her side, going on treasure hunting adventures together, talking about nothing simply because they can-

How could it be a waste?]

We're friends so-that's why. That's how it is.

[antepone]

[ She flinches when Ren says that word. Friends. The Shadow scoffs, looks to the side, and her hand lowers a touch. ]

I don't deserve friendship.

[catpiper]

[No matter how many times she faces someone wearing the face of a person she cares about, it never makes sense.

She can never look at them and see someone not worth loving and adoring and-

Even Mira feels that way. For all the resounding kindness in her heart, she thinks that's something she doesn't deserve and-]

Why not?

[antepone]

What do I have to offer?

[ Her voice is tight, strained. More than anything, she believes it. ]

Nothing. Everything I am, everything I have--there are so many others who are better.

[catpiper]

They aren't you, so-

[Is it really better?

She's never quantified the people that stay by her side. None of them are better or worse. They're all kind-have their own personalities and quirks. Different things that make them happy. That make them sad.]

You're good because you're Mira.

[antepone]

[ She makes a quiet, frustrated noise. ]

But that's exactly why I'm not good.

[catpiper]

[She would say I don't understand if the remnants of that thought process didn't shake her daily. It's because Mira thinks she's inherently bad, no matter what, and while Ren knows this is wrong-

It can be a hard feeling to shake. Impossible, even.]

I don't think you're bad at all.

[antepone]

[ Quietly, she lets out a huff. She drags a hand through her hair, and she looks at Ren with something like fear.

Ren can probably feel it. It's intense, thick. ]

That's because you don't really know me. If you did, you wouldn't be saying these things.

[catpiper]

[It does hit her, like a thousand bricks at once, and while fear is a pretty par the course emotion for her, there's no mistaking its source. It's clearly Mira's-her friend's being consumed by it and-

She doesn't get why.]

Is that why you're scared? Because I don't know?

[antepone]

[ She nods. Her face crumples, and she presses her hands to her face. After Ren says that--it's like all that anger drains out of her. ]

I-- She's scared that you'll leave, if you knew.

[catpiper]

[If I know what is what she wants to ask-the question burning the tip of her tongue and she knows that's wrong. It's a secret-Mira's secret.

But she's got to relay this-no matter what, Mira needs to know-]

I won't leave her or you.