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Entry tags:
- coco: héctor rivera,
- critical role: beauregard,
- critical role: yasha nydoorin,
- final fantasy xv: ardyn izunia,
- final fantasy xv: ignis scientia,
- fragile dreams: ren,
- hollow knight: the knight,
- hyper light drifter: the drifter,
- marble hornets: tim wright,
- mass effect: legion,
- mushi-shi: ginko,
- original: erika fisher,
- original: mira delacroix,
- osomatsu-san: ichimatsu matsuno,
- red vs. blue: agent washington,
- the adventure zone: kravitz,
- the league: jules dagger samari,
- undertale: asgore dreemurr,
- undertale: chara dreemurr,
- voltron: keith kogane,
- voltron: takashi shirogane,
- ✖ ffxv: gladiolus amicitia,
- ✖ ffxv: prompto argentum,
- ✖ guilty gear: faust,
- ✖ hollow knight: the hollow knight,
- ✖ hollow knight: troupe master grimm,
- ✖ homestuck: karako pierot,
- ✖ hyper light drifter: the guardian,
- ✖ no.6: nezumi,
- ✖ no.6: shion,
- ✖ original: foster van denend,
- ✖ persona 5: ann takamaki,
- ✖ rwby: pyrrha nikos,
- ✖ the adventure zone: lup,
- ✖ the adventure zone: taako,
- ✖ undertale: frisk,
- ✖ undertale: muffet,
- ✖ voltron: alfor,
- ✖ voltron: princess allura
January Event: Fade to Black
JANUARY EVENT: FADE TO BLACK
Who: Anyone and everyone!
What: Your true self comes to roost
When: January 21st - 23rd; January 25th - 28th
Where: All over!
Warnings: Dark subjects such as violence and self-destruction are likely to come to the forefront - please mark your content accordingly!
What: Your true self comes to roost
When: January 21st - 23rd; January 25th - 28th
Where: All over!
Warnings: Dark subjects such as violence and self-destruction are likely to come to the forefront - please mark your content accordingly!
Down in that Darkness
This log is primarily for the Shadow and Light portions of the event, for ease and convenience. Your Shadow can be either the Persona-inspired sort - a "brutal, bitterly honest recreation of a character's worst flaws, darkest fears, and deepest secrets" - or the edgier, more laughable variant. The Lights, on the other hand, will do their utmost to convince their real selves of their best qualities, no matter how little they want to hear them.
Remember that the Shadows will be present from January 21st to January 23rd, and the Lights will be present from January 25th to January 28th.
On January 25th, we will post a separate log for Rejection Rooms!
Some useful links, for reference:
This log is primarily for the Shadow and Light portions of the event, for ease and convenience. Your Shadow can be either the Persona-inspired sort - a "brutal, bitterly honest recreation of a character's worst flaws, darkest fears, and deepest secrets" - or the edgier, more laughable variant. The Lights, on the other hand, will do their utmost to convince their real selves of their best qualities, no matter how little they want to hear them.
Remember that the Shadows will be present from January 21st to January 23rd, and the Lights will be present from January 25th to January 28th.
On January 25th, we will post a separate log for Rejection Rooms!
Some useful links, for reference:
[ ♆ ] OOC Event Post
[ ♆ ] Rejection Room Sign-Ups; remember to note your interest in these as soon as possible!
[ ♆ ] Deaths Page; death penalties have been reduced for the duration of this event, but still do let us know if your character dies regardless!
Event Timeline
[ ♆ ] January 20th: The monthly Storytelling occurs.
[ ♆ ] January 21st: Shadows of both initial variants appear.
[ ♆ ] January 23rd: Shadows of both initial variants disappear.
[ ♆ ] January 25th Lights and Rejection Rooms appear.
[ ♆ ] January 28th: Lights and Rejection Rooms dissipate. Those still trapped in their Rejection Rooms by the event's end will suffer a character death.
( CODED BY BOOTYCALL )
Shadow-Confrontation
There is no way to tell at this point, and more importantly, it seems Shion may need his help. Inquiring about Aster's extended absence--his original reason for seeking out Shion--is going to have to wait.]
Shion? Are you all right?
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I might have needed your help, but it seems I can't even fight myself properly. [The shadows laughter is hollow, empty. The despair that Shion mostly manages to keep buried echoing in it.
Don't you feel bad? [It turns back to Shion] Fooling all these people into believing you're worth their time.
Hello!
[At least the way the creature, whatever it is, speaks, Ignis is made certain who the real Shion is and he turns his head in his friend's direction.]
You are more than worth my time and the time of the others who care for you, so pay him no mind.
Re: Hello!
[Shion's eyes flickered between his shadow and Ignis. This... He had faced his shadow before, a rage filled version of himself but that had been different. That Shion had not spoken, had not claimed to be more real than he himself was.]
I know... [He doesn't sound certain and the shadow laughed as well.]
Make up your mind, a moment ago you were certain I was right and now you're agreeing with Ignis? You're afraid he will be angry? Coward.]
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[Those annoyed words are definitely meant for the Shadow alone and that must be what this is. There really is no other explanation Ignis can think of. His next words, though are directed at them both.]
It's easy to make one doubt when they are alone. Fortunately, Shion isn't alone and will never be so as long as I draw breath.
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I am him. He pretends I don't exist. This darkness. But he can't get away from me and denying me won't do any of you any good. One day you will say the wrong thing and he won't be able to help himself. No one is safe from him, it's probably a good job we are so pathetic at fighting.
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[They are all their own worst enemies and Ignis knows that is just as true for himself as it is for Shion. He's glad when he hears his friend move closer, though, accepting his support even if he can't put his own thoughts to words yet.]
Nothing in this world is safe. That goes double for the people in it. We all make mistakes because none of us are perfect. Shion, at least, has shown willingness to learn from those mistakes no matter how hard it may be.
[Ignis turns a knowing smile in Shion's direction.]
And it is hard. Sometimes, it's even tempting to ignore the darkness instead of fighting to make things better, but in the end, we know the easy route is not the best one.
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I try... [Shion's voice was unsure, quiet. He's at Ignis' side now and reaches out for his friends hand. He can't do this alone and a hand is an anchor, something stopping his mind from flying apart in panic.] I won't let you win.
[The shadow laughed again.] We know what dad said about trying. I've already won Shion, you just continue to deny it. I won the first time you gave into me, Nezumi sees it, even Aster sees it. Yet you continue to pretend like you can ignore me. As if I am not the greater part of you.
That doesn't mean I can't still fight... Ignis is right, easy things aren't always right. Easy things are never right. Struggling is part of living in the real world.
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Repeated attempts are not failures. Sometimes the full solution isn't visible right away and you have to try and fail to uncover what else you need in order to succeed.
[He gives Shion's hand another squeeze as he turns his full attention to him.]
I know this part of you scares you and that you wish it was not there, but it is a part of you and it won't go away just as your friends and family will not go away should you slip and let this part of you out. We care about you. All of you. Good and bad.
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Nezumi doesn't. He leaves. Don't ever think that is not because you are a nutjob Shion. We know he leaves, ever time. Every future. Even the Nezumi here won't put up with you for long. He will learn soon enough.
Dad didn't go away, not by choice anyways. Not even... [He trailed off, glancing at Ignis. Not wanting to continue.]
Even when you killed him? See you can't even say it Shion, can't let yourself admit how much I am the real you.
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[Ignis can't see the glances, but that doesn't mean he can't read the emotions in Shion's words. He gently frees his hand from his friend's grip only to step closer and put his arm around the young man's shoulders.]
It liked taking those little dark parts of you and giving them more power than they should have had. You can hardly use that as an example.
[He shakes his head, leaning over then to rest his head against Shion's hair for a moment, almost but not quite tucking him under his chin.]
Lets let the Nezumi who is here make his own choices. This place changes people, often for the better. And, if he still walks away in the end as he apparently did in those futures you speak of, then I would say the issue is with him, not with you.
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You know nothing of Nezumi so don't speak about what you don't understand. Nezumi has no faults.
[It steps closer and Shion steps so he's in front of Ignis. As annoyed as he is about the words about Nezumi he is not going to let his own darkness hurt his friend.]
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[Despite the anger Shion shows, Ignis remains calm. Shion's anger is understandable. He cares a lot about this Nezumi, but he can't be allowed to let those feelings blind him. Not when it hurts him so much.]
What I do know is this. There is no perfect person in the world. Not a one. Everyone has flaws. Putting someone on a pedestal brings nothing but pain for you both when that person inevitably falls from it.
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Don't listen to him. He's trying to draw you away from Nezumi. He won't fall, he will never fall.
Don't... Ignis doesn't mean any harm. He's just trying...
He's feeding you lies Shion. Nezumi has no flaws, just because you aren't good enough for him doesn't mean you can put that on him.
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Perhaps I'm mishearing the words that are leaving my mouth, but I'm certain I said nothing of the sort. Pointing out that someone is flawed doesn't mean they should be abandoned. It just means they are the same as we are, human, but considering the joy you were having not long ago pointing out Shoin's flaws in order to force him to keep fighting you out of anger, I don't expect you to understand that. After all, understanding would mean accepting and you've done a wonderful job distracting us away from that idea, haven't you?
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Go away... [Shion's voice is quite, exhausted. But Ignis is fighting so hard for him, against his shadow, it is only right that Shion tries to stick up for himself.] Leave us alone.
You will be left alone. Ignis here is so naive, sticking with you; a weakling, a coward, a liability. How long until you get him killed, Shion? How long until he is just another thing you are sorry for.
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[Even as the sarcasm drips from his words, Ignis steps closer to Shoin's back. He doesn't reach out this time, remembering the anger of not long ago, but he wants to make it clear he's not going anywhere.]
Friends and family do not abandon each other due to weakness, liability or any other negative trait you can think of.
[Ignis know this first hand because if it hadn't been true, then he would have been left behind after he lost his vision and in the end, he wasn't despite how worried everyone was for him.]
And, for your information, I am very good at placing myself in situations where I may get killed. It's literally part of my job. I will hardly hold it against Shion should the worst happen, especially since I will have placed myself in the situation to begin with. Willingly.
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It's what he would do, but he is still in many ways weak and naive.]
You would like that wouldn't you. To just cut me away, pretend that I don't belong. [It shakes it's head at Ignis.] To die for such an useless nutjob as Shion, it sounds like a thankless job.
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[Ignis speaks to the shadow first before shifting his attention back to Shion.]
As much as I hate to come anywhere near agreeing with that thing, denying him will do no good. For better or worse, he is a part of you and you must accept that before you can truly work to better that part of yourself.
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If that's a choice then it's a strange one but not so different than Ruana's obsession with games, Jason's with twisting bodies or Riki's of weird and mind boggling architecture.
Knowing the rules made it easier and the rules seemed to be to confront the things he would rather ignore.
He turned to the shadow.]
I... I know you are part of me. Even if... [He shook his head.] I'm not going to fight you. Not here and now. You are part of me and it's a part I have to accept...
[The shadow, for it's part laughed unkindly.]
It's a fight you will never win Shion.
[It turned away though, seemingly satsified.]
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It's wrong, you know. You'll win. I have faith in you. It will take time and patience for such deep changes cannot happen over night, but you will come out on top.
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It doesn't surprise him that Ignis seems to feel differently. Ignis is one of the people in Shion's life who seems to believe in him, no matter how many times Shion messes up.]
Thank you... I couldn't have... I couldn't have done that alone.
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[Ignis gives him a warm smile and then steps forward, arms raised slightly offering Shion a hug if he wants it. Just the time he was here with Shion was painful, and he has no idea how long he was facing the shadow alone before that. He must be exhausted.]
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Even if he knew his shadow was right, he didn't deserve them. He didn't make their choices for them though, shouldn't make their choices for them. He accepts the hug, pressing his forehead into Ignis' chest.]
I'm sorry... for what it said.
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[Ignis runs a hand lightly over Shion's hair.]
Truly, I understand. Dealing with the darker parts of ourselves is never easy. Especially when they are so good at twisting things and feeding our fears.
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