[Connor laughs, which turns into a cough. On any other occasion, it might seems like he was trying to hide the laugh. Here, it's obvious the flowers set him off.]
I know you won't believe this, but the best thing I ever did for other people was die.
[From his perspective, anyway, his death gave people what they wanted. His dad got someone who wanted to play baseball. The son he'd always wanted. There was an orchard being restored. People got meaning from his death where when he'd been alive he'd just been a burden. He'd just been seeking attention.]
All I do when I'm alive is ruin things.
[Usually deliberately. Sometimes unintentionally. If he were honest about that too, he'd say it's because his brain is a fucked up black hole and he has no impulse control. When he decides something, that's all there is to it. Sometimes he destroys something in the process of trying to save something else. Most of the time, he just caves to the part of his brain that says he should ruin things like a forest fire that ravages everything before someone manages to get it under control.]
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I know you won't believe this, but the best thing I ever did for other people was die.
[From his perspective, anyway, his death gave people what they wanted. His dad got someone who wanted to play baseball. The son he'd always wanted. There was an orchard being restored. People got meaning from his death where when he'd been alive he'd just been a burden. He'd just been seeking attention.]
All I do when I'm alive is ruin things.
[Usually deliberately. Sometimes unintentionally. If he were honest about that too, he'd say it's because his brain is a fucked up black hole and he has no impulse control. When he decides something, that's all there is to it. Sometimes he destroys something in the process of trying to save something else. Most of the time, he just caves to the part of his brain that says he should ruin things like a forest fire that ravages everything before someone manages to get it under control.]