...No, no, it's--you're good. You're okay. It's--it's nice to get your perspective. I just get, uh. Volatile? Understandably so. About this topic. Like, yeah, that's what Wash would say. That I'm human, more or less, like, that my remembered lived experience and the way I see the world is--
I mean. I mean disagreeing would be like saying oh, I'm just an AI, a dumb and broken one at that, and like...I'm more than that. Right? I'm...
[He's so tired. He hasn't noticed petals falling off the flowers, wilting stems.]
I'm the Alpha. I'm the Alpha AI. But I'm also Church. Not Director Church, or whatever. Leonard Church. If nothing else, I'm me, whatever I am. I just--I-I never wanted to say it. It's like if I think about it too long, I wanna scream for how fucked up it is, so I always denied it, and even when I talked about it, it was like...third person. Talking about it, about him, about Alpha. I heard about these things that happened to Alpha, but he--I ripped out my own memories to keep my sanity, which then drove Wash crazy, but he's...arguably better now, so I guess...
He and I get into shouting matches. Because I want to know, right up until he tells me things, then I suddenly don't want to know. I don't know how he keeps it all in his head. I don't know how he's lived with the kn-knowing.
[He's babbling. Shut up. Shut the fuck up before you choke on it all. How is it fair to dump it all on Legion like that? Church coughs, not physically needing to and yet his more human of senses telling him he needs to.]
I value your opinion, Legion. As a fellow inorganic. Don't ever think I don't.
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I mean. I mean disagreeing would be like saying oh, I'm just an AI, a dumb and broken one at that, and like...I'm more than that. Right? I'm...
[He's so tired. He hasn't noticed petals falling off the flowers, wilting stems.]
I'm the Alpha. I'm the Alpha AI. But I'm also Church. Not Director Church, or whatever. Leonard Church. If nothing else, I'm me, whatever I am. I just--I-I never wanted to say it. It's like if I think about it too long, I wanna scream for how fucked up it is, so I always denied it, and even when I talked about it, it was like...third person. Talking about it, about him, about Alpha. I heard about these things that happened to Alpha, but he--I ripped out my own memories to keep my sanity, which then drove Wash crazy, but he's...arguably better now, so I guess...
He and I get into shouting matches. Because I want to know, right up until he tells me things, then I suddenly don't want to know. I don't know how he keeps it all in his head. I don't know how he's lived with the kn-knowing.
[He's babbling. Shut up. Shut the fuck up before you choke on it all. How is it fair to dump it all on Legion like that? Church coughs, not physically needing to and yet his more human of senses telling him he needs to.]
I value your opinion, Legion. As a fellow inorganic. Don't ever think I don't.