[He's leaving gaps in the narrative. Purposeful ones.]

[This is just one of those things he knows he won't be able to forgive himself for. That's fine. Where Maine is concerned, he has a long, long list of things that he won't ever be able to forgive himself for. What's one more to the ledger?]

He's...stressed. He doesn't know who he is. And he's pretty scared of anything Freelancer. So if he freaks out when he sees you, he might...it's because he thought he was a simulation trooper for a while. Long - long story.