"I think that would be the least of it, if I got to somewhere normal."
He had been prepared when they left the tower to return to a world that wouldn't know it had been dead for two and a half years. But really... Shion doubts his ability to fit back into anywhere... even near normal.
He's learned these last few months that even though he escaped the tower it doesn't mean everything is magically alright. He still wakes in mindless terror from nightmares every night, still lives on a knife edge expecting the worst to happen. There's almost a... relief every time everything does go wrong here, like the world is proving him right.
Perhaps that's how Nezumi has always been. More evidence that Shion had not been ready for the real world. Had not been strong enough. Would never be strong enough.
"I will. You don't have to... But you will always be welcome."
It's a hard line to straddle, he doesn't want to stifle Nezumi, doesn't want to scare him off.
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He had been prepared when they left the tower to return to a world that wouldn't know it had been dead for two and a half years. But really... Shion doubts his ability to fit back into anywhere... even near normal.
He's learned these last few months that even though he escaped the tower it doesn't mean everything is magically alright. He still wakes in mindless terror from nightmares every night, still lives on a knife edge expecting the worst to happen. There's almost a... relief every time everything does go wrong here, like the world is proving him right.
Perhaps that's how Nezumi has always been. More evidence that Shion had not been ready for the real world. Had not been strong enough. Would never be strong enough.
"I will. You don't have to... But you will always be welcome."
It's a hard line to straddle, he doesn't want to stifle Nezumi, doesn't want to scare him off.