She'd been horrified when Church had told her what had happened to Wash. The only reason she'd been able to bear the guilt - she'd left him there, and then that had happened - was that it had all been years ago by the time Church told her, and not only because they'd been dragged forward in time. Church had known a post-Epsilon Wash, one who was bent but not broken, who'd survived the horror of memory and come out mostly intact on the other side.
Mostly.
She shoots a glance at him at last, quick and uncertain, eyes still rimmed with red. What is he getting at? ]
I know how it ended.
But...
[ She shakes her head. It's so hard to explain. ]
I couldn't - I didn't know who might have listened, and who...wouldn't.
[ It's why she'd left the files behind for Tex, rather than confronting her with the truth beforehand. After all, she'd tried to persuade Tex and Carolina, at the end, and gotten nothing but an axe in the chest for it. They hadn't been awake yet, either. Hadn't been ready to listen. ]
And someone had to...I had to get the files out. To get them to someone outside the Project, so they could get them to the right people. Someone who could go after the Director, who could stop him, who...
It was too risky to do anything else, Wash. It was the only way.
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She'd been horrified when Church had told her what had happened to Wash. The only reason she'd been able to bear the guilt - she'd left him there, and then that had happened - was that it had all been years ago by the time Church told her, and not only because they'd been dragged forward in time. Church had known a post-Epsilon Wash, one who was bent but not broken, who'd survived the horror of memory and come out mostly intact on the other side.
Mostly.
She shoots a glance at him at last, quick and uncertain, eyes still rimmed with red. What is he getting at? ]
I know how it ended.
But...
[ She shakes her head. It's so hard to explain. ]
I couldn't - I didn't know who might have listened, and who...wouldn't.
[ It's why she'd left the files behind for Tex, rather than confronting her with the truth beforehand. After all, she'd tried to persuade Tex and Carolina, at the end, and gotten nothing but an axe in the chest for it. They hadn't been awake yet, either. Hadn't been ready to listen. ]
And someone had to...I had to get the files out. To get them to someone outside the Project, so they could get them to the right people. Someone who could go after the Director, who could stop him, who...
It was too risky to do anything else, Wash. It was the only way.