Deep breath, because he can only be honest, even if it hurts to admit.]
Because I don't trust myself to find someone like that. People who are too kind, too good to me - those are the people I find myself suspecting of wanting to stab me in the back at any time.
[Because you, Ardyn, are not the only one who has trouble understanding basic human things like trust and kindness.]
And I'm trying, anyway, to teach myself again that people like that actually exist, but when it's too much and I'm anxious or upset or just plain tired of working so damn hard to trust people even a little, you are the person who feels safe for me.
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Deep breath, because he can only be honest, even if it hurts to admit.]
Because I don't trust myself to find someone like that. People who are too kind, too good to me - those are the people I find myself suspecting of wanting to stab me in the back at any time.
[Because you, Ardyn, are not the only one who has trouble understanding basic human things like trust and kindness.]
And I'm trying, anyway, to teach myself again that people like that actually exist, but when it's too much and I'm anxious or upset or just plain tired of working so damn hard to trust people even a little, you are the person who feels safe for me.