[By the end, he'd had no idea. The idea that - that Jay would've wanted him, would've wanted Jessica, to continue to carve out some kind of halfway normal lives for themselves - for a while, that was enough too. It's a damn stupid thing, in retrospect. You can't disappoint the dead. You can't upset them. That's the point of it all; they're dead.]
[That tired little smile of theirs pulls something answering out of him, faint and wavering at its corners.]
I stopped waiting around for things to get better a long time ago. [And he knows - knows they did too. He was proof of that. That things do not, in fact, get better.]
You're about ten times stronger than I ever was, buddy. If I can make it this far, I think maybe you can too.
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[By the end, he'd had no idea. The idea that - that Jay would've wanted him, would've wanted Jessica, to continue to carve out some kind of halfway normal lives for themselves - for a while, that was enough too. It's a damn stupid thing, in retrospect. You can't disappoint the dead. You can't upset them. That's the point of it all; they're dead.]
[That tired little smile of theirs pulls something answering out of him, faint and wavering at its corners.]
I stopped waiting around for things to get better a long time ago. [And he knows - knows they did too. He was proof of that. That things do not, in fact, get better.]
You're about ten times stronger than I ever was, buddy. If I can make it this far, I think maybe you can too.